>>>> I am this STRESSED OUT. I can readily finish all these. I don't care about diet, I just want to feel complete satisfaction and pure happiness! >>>>
Hey you guys! How have you been? I missed this blog, my readers and everything I used to do in here. I missed life, generally. How have I been, you ask? I've been doing fine I guess. I am getting by with my life, school and work. I think. Or maybe not. Actually, my life is on the rocks right now. I feel bad and I feel miserable and sad. I do not really want to dwell on the negative, but if I do not let this out, I might explode one of this days and I might never be sane again. I really cannot pinpoint when this feeling started, but I feel so lost for the past two years of my life. When I was 17 years old, I thought I had figured my life out. I thought I was so straightforward on my goal and firm on my destination. I do not know what happened midway that I took a whole new different foreign direction and I am struggling finding my way out. After March last year, I just realized that I do not know where to go next. All I know was that I want to be rich, travel the world ...
Day three of my Manila trip and the highlight as well. Saturday was the day of the Max International Anniversary party at SMX Convention Center beside MOA. So since it was a business/party I chose to wear something smart casual. What I wore was a black romper and a draped vest. When I bought that black romper, I thought if you wear it, it would be uncomfortable and hot and surprisingly it wasn't. It was super comfy because its material is made of cotton plus it blended well with the draped vest that is super light as well. But then the lightness of the clothing paid off when I entered SMX since the aircon was in full blast, and yea, I felt really cold inside. Interlude: I also dropped by the Penshoppe Fashion Week too! Hahaha! Not really, the hall where our party was held was just beside the hall where the Penshoppe event was. So there were pretty girls and boys all around the center and man, they were tall (read: 6 feet and above). The legs are to die for and the body...
Wow! I can't believe it. I'm entering a new decade but I don't feel like ageing (Except maybe for my style preferences). I feel more alive than ever--fully discovering myself and accepting that life as what it is. It's not gonna be perfect and you cannot have what everyone is having no matter how hard you try to project that. And the best way to fully enjoy life is to be happy with what you have, make the most out of it and always always always live life incognito ;) Looking back, what I hated in my 20s are the things that I am very grateful for now. Indeed, (young) adulthood is a phase where your version of "ideal" world is slowly torn apart in order for you to make way for reality. It may not be a posh hood-- reality that is, but you can always learn the ropes, play the game then make the game. You will go through a dark and depressive era and somewhere between those years, you will slowly see a spark and as you move forward the spark gets brighter and br...
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