One and Twenty
One
and Twenty
I
was one when I first saw the world
It
was nothing then but a series of twist and turns
I
turned seven
Everything
gets even
You
play, you fall
You
get muddy and crawl
Life
was carefree at ten
Sweets
where just chocolates from way back when
Problems
were only found in math
Solutions
were pretty easy to catch
Then
I was fifteen for a moment
Hating
on the world's torment
Everything
was rebellious for a teen that is curious
You
thought you run the world
Only
to find you are easily fooled
Twenty
came in a rush
Next
thing I knew I was graduating in a hush
You
thought you would taste freedom
Adult
world here I come
Reality
then strikes you in the face
Hey
this is not an easy place!
Your
first trip to reality
Already
being held up by gravity
You
thought you were fly
Only
to go home and cry
The
world is just too scary
Everyone
is in a hurry
People
you see are eager to pull each other down
They
are satisfied when they see you frown
But
I have learned to look at them like potatoes
Walking
in the streets in tiptoes
Now
I am one and twenty
Lessons
learned a plenty
The
world so rude
No
place for a prude
I
need to put my big girl pants on
And
channel a game face on!
I
have known the drill
Now
I am in it for the kill
I
am one and twenty
I
need to be smart and witty
If
I wish to survive
I
have to be confident to thrive
Turning twenty-one for me means
saying goodbye to my old self and welcoming my new self. For the past few days,
I have been e-evaluating my life, my plans and my goals. I realize I have gone
far from what I originally intended to do. To be honest, I am quite frustrated
with everything. In a span of few months, I have managed to feel both elated
and depressed at the same time. It was a just a few months ago where I felt
like I was on top of the world then I entered law school and I lost everything.
Even my confidence (so little that I have). Looking back, I realized I only
planned to become an international flight attendant. After all, my ultimate
goal in life is just to travel the world and get rich. That opportunity came,
it was one Saturday of June when I was in the middle of my review when I
received a call. I answered it and was surprised to hear it was from Philippine
Airlines. I remembered I sent them my resumé last March. I know I could have
told them I was 5’3” and I would have readily gone for the interview but
somehow I could not just give up law and my review. I decline PAL and chose law
and my review. I could have made the biggest mistake in my life for giving up
my childhood dreams but I do not know what has gotten to me at that moment. Is
it because my plans have changed? Is it because I know that what I am doing
today bears a bigger consequence than being just a flight attendant? I do not
know. But I am sure that my sacrifice equates to something bigger in the
future.
I have to admit that things are
not easy in law. But even if law school and I are not really in good terms
right now, it has taught me lessons beyond criminal, persons and the
constitution. It taught me real life lessons. I learned that there will always
be people better than us and it takes great courage to accept that fact. I
learned that we will never be smart enough, thus, we should keep on learning. A
college degree is not enough to get far ahead in life, we must continue
studying. Things will never be fair, we must stop asking for equality and
fairness in life. One must not be too sensitive, everyone is trying to survive
and they are going to fight tooth and nail for it. You should not be weak and
let others get to you without putting up a fight. You should be strong enough to
handle all the challenges. Lastly, it takes consistency to succeed. The effort
you put into your work must be consistently the best, regardless of what
everyone is doing. Put your focus into improving yourself and stop comparing
yourself to others.
And so I have created my new
philosophy in life: “If it does not make you smarter, richer and better, they do not
matter”. I know this may sound ruthless, harsh and cold but it simply
means cutting off things and people that do you no good. This is not about
becoming cold and heartless, this is just trying to put yourself out of
trouble. Success means doing away with everything that hinders you from
reaching your goals. If it means sacrificing, avoiding and isolating every
external factor that will hurt you instead of benefitting you then please get
out of it. After all, as long as you do not do anything evil to other people
then that is all that matters.
I am starting a whole new year by
changing myself for the better. I am throwing away the pains of the past and I
will start anew and fill myself with positive thoughts only. I will accept my
mistakes and learn from them. I will be more mature in handling any situations
and always walk out of them in style. One thing will never change though, it
would be my love for shoes, clothes and bags. ( haha!)
Moving forward, let us talk about
this recent photoshoot. I actually made an effort to have an outfit shot solely
because I want to dedicate this for my readers. I know I owe them a lot for not
updating my blog anymore after a long time. I just opened this blog again and I
saw that I had more than 12,000 readers this past few months. Wow!! I mean, who
would dare visit a haunted blog right? But I had phantom readers. Thank you so
much guys. You always make me kilig for visiting my blog. J
I would like to give a shout out
to Teban for taking these photos. I know he was quite pissed off because I
demanded to do this and that but oh well, a friend has got to do what a
friend’s got to do.
I would like to end this post by
telling my readers that I am so grateful for their blog visits. This boosts my
confidence in so many ways. I want to tell you to keep dreaming and to keep
working for that dream. I wish everyone a good life. J Until
my next post!
Outfit:
Jumpsuit: Mags | Shoes: Parisian
Photos:
Steven Tan
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